Whats in a name?

I guess i should explain my my blog's name... but where to begin? I guess a good place to begin would be the beginning... as is all good places to begin.

I feel my life is best measured in relationships, im either in one, starting one, ending one or simply searching for one. Yes thats right im a hopeless romantic, ive even tried to put a ban on watching romances as they do lead to unrealistic expectations in love. I simply find I is not a capital i without someone to share I with. So firstly to point out that i am a homosexual, or rather faggot poofta or homo, what ever tickles your fancy. I came out at 18 and straight into a rather serious relationship. One that i guess has moulded my tainted view on love. We bought a house, had the white picket fence, the 2 dogs ( a substitute child for the gays) and we had a lifestyle that not many 18 yo's are accustom to. Endless dinner parties and gatherings with the whose who of the Paynesville socialites (thats a complete other blog) But it was tainted and didnt last, but not to say it didnt teach me my lessons. After that i flitted around, falling for nearly anything with a pulse that showed intrest, too many to name, some lovely but most usually ending in tears and a bottle of vodka. Then venturing straight into another LTR with a super lovely guy, but that was not to be either, nor for lack of trying. I did want it to be "it" that we all longingly search for, but it taught me that u cannot change the way of.... the gods... the heart...... of even fait, it just simply wasnt right. Which brings me to now... perhaps i shalt not enter into that at this current time, i will say it is a little messy. Not the yukky or horrible messy, just the confusing messy, the kind that makes u scratch ur head and wonder... what is happening? no really i would like to know!

 So thus brings me to the summary of this post, as u can see my life seems to be a endless search for that one true love as all of us are, some of us have found them and i say koot-os to u (i am rather jealous) but most of us are searching still, hoping, some praying me just dreaming. I know i transfix on it too much, perhaps this blogging will help me keep it under raps. So that is why i entitled my blog the suitable suitor, for it seems to be my life aim........ to find the suitable suitor.....

My suitable suitor